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I’m a vivid dreamer. I’ve had dreams for as long as I can remember. Detailed ones, and I always remember them when I wake up. Maybe not the whole dream, but key elements usually stick out. I used to get up and type out my dreams before I forgot too many details. I’ll have to share one later that involves 2 of my friends (I’m not sure if I’ve told them about it before); but its one I actually typed out in its entirety.

In any case, I usually have 2-3 dreams a night because I tend to wake up in the middle of the night, then go back to sleep. Last night I had 2 distinct dreams. One involved me and my cousin. My mom drove us to this beauty supply store in Atlanta, and my mom waited outside for us while we ran in to get stuff we needed. I remember looking for a costume, a Halloween costume, but here’s the kicker…….it was December. And I remember thinking in my dream, wait, its December, why am I looking for a Halloween costume? AND, in a beauty supply store?

So I ditched the costume pursuit, and decided to get some makeup. Mascara specifically (which is funny, because I really need some new mascara IRL*). I remember feeling like we had to hurry, because my mom was waitin’ on us, but it felt like we were in there forever. I finally decide on a mascara and a lipgloss, and get ready to go pay. But no one’s in the store. Everyone’s outside or something. Then some people come inside the store, and I see the owner of the store is a guy friend of mine in NY (IRL he’s a hustler/promoter). And he tells me that the store is closed for the day (its like 6pm), so I can’t buy anything. Well I’m bothered, cuz I’ve been in this store for a long time, searching for the right mascara and lipgloss, and now I gotta put it back, and come get it tomorrow.

So I walk to where I got the makeup, act like I’m putting it back on the shelf, make sure neither he nor the cameras are watching me, and put the makeup in my jacket pocket (I actually struggled to get the 2 items in my pocket…….funny how the simplest things always end up being difficult in a dream). Then I politely smile, and walk out the store. My cousin had already left, so she and my mom were waiting outside for me. And I thought my mom was gonna be mad because we took so long, but she was all smiles.

*random end of story*

Yeah, so that was my dream. Here’s what the Dream Moods dictionary says about that:

Stealing
To dream that you are stealing, denotes that you are deprived and where the stealing takes place (at home, the office, at school….) is indicative of your neediness. Alternatively, it may signify unrealized and unfulfilled goals. You may have set your goals too high.

Hmmm, so my theft occured in a beauty supply store. Am I deprived of beauty? Or maybe I’m not satisfied with the level of beauty I have? Perhaps I’ve set my beauty goals too high. Hmmm…….

Yeah, all of that could be the case. I’m steadily battling my hair issues, skin issues, weight issues. Perhaps this is the “wake up” call I needed (NPI**). Its time to get over myself, and love me for me. What’s funny is that, I always thought I did love myself. I mean, I feel like I do. I’m pretty confident, but perhaps I’m so good at putting on this facade, I even began to believe myself; to the point that I could no longer tell between what’s “real”, and what’s “for show”.

Well its time to take that show OFF the road, and make it for real. Thank you subconscious for setting me straight.

~B. Good

*IRL = in real life
**NPI = no pun intended