when its cold outside
December 07th, 2007 | 
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……giiirrlll who are you holdin
**love that song**
Its that time of year again. Leaves are turning brown, falling off trees, covering the sidewalk, blowing in the wind, and scaring B. Good half to death because she thinks its a rodent scurrying about at her feet.
Its also that time of year when people tend to get down. Solemn. Just plain ol’ sad. Is it a coincidence? Or is the change of the season that depressing? They say a lot of tragedy occurs around this time. People lose loved ones, they lose themselves, they remember lost loves, they’re alone with no one to share this special time with……
Really, I think its just too damn cold and folks lose their minds. Its averaged about 30 degrees here, and we’ve even had some snowfall. You know what that means? Stay your ass inside and try not to leave the house unless its absolutely necessary.
I still haven’t learned how to function in cold ass weather, so I’ve been spending a lot of time indoors. Alone. And its become quite dangerous.
- Its just me and my thoughts to keep me company. Anyone who knows me, knows that I’m a thinker. I ponder, meditate, ruminate, contemplate EVERYTHING. A million thoughts a minute. It takes me forever to fall asleep because my brain needs at least an hour to go through all of its thoughts until it finally settles down into a wild and adventurous dream that keeps it busy and active all night. I mean
it NEVER stops .
- Last night, I found myself having a drink and a black by my lonesome. Messed around and got a lil faded (throwback word alert!!! ), only for my mom to call bring my high back down. However, I slept pretty sound the whole night. Didn’t take too long to get there either. And it wasn’t hard for me to get up the next day. I could get used to having a regular nightcap. Oh, but I did have a some extra digestive activity for most of the morning. I don’t think I could get used to that……ever since I stopped drinkin’ it, the hard liquor does that to me. (T.M.I. ALERT!!! - oh, guess I shoulda told yall that first)
- I discussed it with myself and decided that I’m going to this charity holiday party tonight. Guess who’s going with me??? That’s right!!
NOBODY! This can be good or bad, depending on how you look at it. Either way, I’m still going. It’s supposed to rain today. But I’m still going.Lord willing, I’ll get me a seat at the bar. I’ll be in a prime location; ripe for dippin and dodgin the 40-yr old macks tryna get they groove on with a young, fine tenda such as myself. But maybe, just maybe, I’ll pick up a nice, fine brotha who didn’t expect someone as wonderful as I to be present at this event. And alone. He’ll ask me, “what you doin’ here alone?
Where yo MAN at? Why you ain’t got no man?I don’t believe that. You’re too fine.I’m sayin’, what’s a brotha gotta do to get next to you? I know you got ‘em lined up, don’t you girl?DAMN YOU THICK! “……blah, blah, blah. Or worse, he’ll try to hook me up with his homeboy who’s too *fill in the blank* to come and speak to me himself.
Yeah, ummm……
tis the season?
Yall have a great weekend!
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and everyone is entitled to my opinion.
Haaaaa… you have his convo all planned out. Did it actually go like that tonight? he he he
You’re right! This weather definitely means stay inside! Makes me wish I did my Christmas shopping already.
Aaawww B… maybe we can meet up at Happy Hour one Friday.
lol…Too funny! you seriously have it all planned out!
Hope you had fun!
Girl I had to look that one up. When I saw the title I thought it was Refuge by John L. I like K-Ci’s version better than Bobby Womack’s.
Yes, it is that time of year. I think there are more suicides around the holidays than any other time. So much focus on family and togetherness and when you don’t have that, it can weigh on you. We lost my grandmother suddenly on NY Eve 6 years ago so it’s always tough this time of year.
I have a nightcap almost every night. Usually a glass of wine. Sometimes I get a little loose off the Goose. It relaxes me.
*snickering faded* I heard that in a song recently so it ain’t so throwback!
Can’t wait to hear how the party went. I think sometimes the best way to meet someone is to sit at the bar alone. No pressure for a man to navigate what may be a hating ass girlfriend. I’ve done that and met some cool people. Men do it all the time. I may be trying that more in the New Year myself.
I completely agree with you about the cold period. being alone with your thoughts is no good for an analysis junkie like myself. I just work a lot at a second job and try to keep myself busy. distraction is always good…no matter what people say.