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There’s a person in my life that I can’t shake for shit.

 

He can’t shake me either.

 
I’ve stopped trying because clearly there’s something greater than the both of us keeping it together.

 
Its so funny, because I don’t know how many times I’ve cut him off and vice versa. Days (even weeks) later, we let the situation breathe and its back to business as usual. Its the craziest case of forgive and forget that I’ve ever been apart of.

 
Back when I was dating, he was one of the few interests that I encountered. It was a rollercoster ride that took me way too long to get off of; but…I finally did (just as someone else was gettin on, but thats neither here nor there).

Since then, I’ve gone through a series of necessary changes, modifications, and upgrades. Part of that was falling back from dating altogether. I determined that I’m no good as the “lover”; I’m better as the friend. I also learned that you can really think you know someone or something, and have no clue whatsoever. So now, I don’t take things as seriously as I used to. I’m not as attached to people and things as I used to be.

 
I had a post about being affected……yeah this guy is one of the men I referenced in said post. The other guy in that post…is also mentioned in this more recent post. Both situations with these men have taken me through some things, and you know what?……I’m not trippin’ offa either one of them. I give that glory to God. Thanks to Him, I ain’t sweatin’ the small stuff anymore. I feel SO free.

 
And its this freedom that has allowed me to maintain a friendship, well –a platonic relationship– with this guy who I once had a thing for……a thing that just won’t go away, but instead has manifested into something less severe and more…acquiescent.

This thing was tested recently, as he tried to blur the line I created between friend and lover. He was stopped dead in his tracks, and then left the scene abruptly. It was kinda rough. I didn’t want him to feel “rejected”, because I love hanging out with him……but I wanted to keep the integrity of our newfound friendship (and his newfound relationship–even if he didn’t want that for himself…I don’t need crazy gf’s callin me… again).

 
So I reached out to him the following day, in an effort to let him know it was still all good. But I wasn’t gonna budge on my stance regarding our friendship being just a friendship, without the extras. He responded…briefly, but I still wasn’t sure about the climate. I didn’t push it any further, and let it be. If he couldn’t deal with not having the extras, then it was best he stay at a distance.
 

See, old B. Good (that nut)……she woulda pined and pined over whether she did the right thing, were they still cool, what was he thinking, was that the end of it all?

 

Present day B. Good……wasn’t concerned. She represented herself accurately, albeit it caught him off guard. She tried to make contact to ensure the relationship was still intact, but if it wasn’t, there wasn’t anything more she could (or was willing to) do.

 
Later in the day, he hit me up to apologize for the night before. He hoped he hadn’t offended me, and he wanted us to still be cool.

I was pretty proud, if you will, when he said this. Cuz I didn’t know if he got it. I didn’t know if he understood that although I didn’t want him to hold me throughout the night, I did want him around. And even if he did understand that, I didn’t know if he would accept it.

 
I responded with an apology of my own, as I hoped I hadn’t offended him either. I let him know that I really enjoyed hanging together, and the next time we do get together, he should choose someplace other than the pool hall, cuz I’ll beat him again.

 

 

This is SHESOPINIONATED.com,
and everyone is entitled to my opinion.

 

 

 

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