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Ever read something you wrote and go, “DAMN! That was a good ass post. Whoever reads this suuureee is lucky!”

Yeah, me too. But this post isn’t one of ‘em.

 
So I talked a bit about my tendency to self-sabotage…uhh…myself. Its a sick & twisted cycle, because my predictions of self-sabotage are actually a secondary form of self-sabotage as I convince myself that I’ve dun it once again, when in fact……I may have not sabotaged myself at all.

 

wha?

I know.

 
So anyway, I did some cleaning, dusting, organizing, and disposing on Saturday. Ya know, straightening up the living space is unbelievably therapeutic. I fell in love with my apartment, my couch, my room, and mySELF all over again. I even did a lil decorating. I felt more at home and more at ease.

 
With all those positive endorphins running through me, I wasn’t as anxious about me screwing up my own happiness……again. Come game time, I just contacted my friend to see if they were still coming over to watch, and that was all there was to it. And……………………

 
……………………they WEREN’T!

 
Just as predicted.

 
But it wasn’t for the reasons I thought. At least, thats not what they implied (but who knows). No no no, stop it! Whatever reason they gave me, I’ll take it! Had NOTHING to do with me and my big mouth.

They even apologized for backing out. I felt ok about things.

 
Then I remembered that not much earlier in the day, I had backed out of something with someone that I really didn’t wanna be around. But I didn’t blame it on them either.

*sigh*

Its the circle of life. And it moves us allllll

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