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I just woke up from a pretty disturbing dream.

 

I dreamt that other people were having sex down the hall from me, and all I could do was sit in another room, isolated, and listen.

How am I gon dream about other people having sex, and I’m just a lowly bystander? That’s a fucked up sex dream.

And I’m a lil confused about how I feel about it. I’m caught between my lack of desire to have sex (even with myself) and the hurt/envy that others are happily & carnally engaged.

I’ve never really been a sexual person. Sex has never been a big deal for me; probably because I rarely get it how I want it. Not necessarily performance wise, but rather with steady frequency and commitment.

And now its like, unless I’m crazy into him, and he’s crazy into me, and we’re solely focused on having sex with only each other, I don’t want anyone coming near me. At all.

I realize this has been amplified by the horrid image of him having sex with her, often, repeatedly, over and over again; meanwhile I’m off to the side somewhere, completely forgotten about.

 
Fuckin’ sucks.

 
And now I’m scared to go to sleep again.

 

 

 

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